waves of events

A rough week before and ahead. Tired.

I don't know what to do without her as my advisor and friend. Meeting her always helps to lift me up. She don't need to do anything, just provide her views and enjoy our night together, be it KTV or movies. She suggested going to the museum to know more about art, pula ubin for cycling, bukit timah to collect plant specimens and zoo to play with animals. She is interesting, motivated and has a mind of her own. Where esle can I find someone like that, someone that I can spend the rest of my life with.

I am having a relationship with my handphone and laptop.

I don't know what to say to you, to make you understand. I am not good with words and not being together is tearing me apart. Where do I go when I need a hug from someone? Where do I go when I need someone beside me? I need someone to lead, someone to depend on and someone to share dreams with. I feel like letting go but my heart won't be able to take it. I'm waiting for the ashes.

Crazy.

The role is challenging. Too challenging. Not many people know that I am going for the role. How to make it happen? How to make something out of nothing? I have no clue. My brain is in a mess. What do I need? Support.