Truth

Was surfing my blog and decided to be kaypo. I started search for blogs of my friends and oh! discovered the blog that confirmed my doubt whether they are together or not. And the answer is yes, they are together. The feeling is weird, I was suspecting it all along and now to confirm that they are together, I feel funny. Hahaha.. I was laughing like mad when I stumbled upon her blog. Too bad I couldn't find his, that will be great man.

Of course, I feel a bit cheated. He is already together with her that long ago. I knew that he wasn't serious but the feeling of being cheated is still there. Especially the part where he told me that he don't even have a GF before. I didn't believe him when he said that. I think he is just humoring me for I told him that I haven't been in any relationship before. I guess he don't believe me also..

Anyway, that was so long ago. I shouldn't even be thinking about it.

Her blog made me miss F. Haven't heard from him for a long time. But he did SMS me during national day when my handphone has no battery. -_- of all times. I only managed to read his sms at 3am in the morning and replied him the next day. He is still busy working and kept saying that he is very sian. He is leaving on 31st Oct for training. I did not ask him for how long but I guess that it will be another long period. I wonder if he will remember my birthday.. our birthdays are so close.. He don't message me in MSN anymore and I will appear offline whenever he is online. I don't like the feeling that both of us are online but he don't message me. At least by appearing offline, I can lie to myself that he can't see me that's why he don't message me. Then again, I don't think things can ever make it between me and him. We are not that close anymore and when I thought he will take action long ago, he didn't.. I feel disappointed. He is much better than most guys I know, although I don't know many guys..