waves of events

A rough week before and ahead. Tired.

I don't know what to do without her as my advisor and friend. Meeting her always helps to lift me up. She don't need to do anything, just provide her views and enjoy our night together, be it KTV or movies. She suggested going to the museum to know more about art, pula ubin for cycling, bukit timah to collect plant specimens and zoo to play with animals. She is interesting, motivated and has a mind of her own. Where esle can I find someone like that, someone that I can spend the rest of my life with.

I am having a relationship with my handphone and laptop.

I don't know what to say to you, to make you understand. I am not good with words and not being together is tearing me apart. Where do I go when I need a hug from someone? Where do I go when I need someone beside me? I need someone to lead, someone to depend on and someone to share dreams with. I feel like letting go but my heart won't be able to take it. I'm waiting for the ashes.

Crazy.

The role is challenging. Too challenging. Not many people know that I am going for the role. How to make it happen? How to make something out of nothing? I have no clue. My brain is in a mess. What do I need? Support.

http://www.redmusic.com/video/DaveLichens/LetGo.asx

HSS Family Day

http://www.hss.ntu.edu.sg/HSSFamilyDay/hssfamilyday.wmv

updates

1) Got my 20GB ipod!

yeah!!! got my ipod today from the seller who was late for 30 mins today -_- and who thought that I was a guy. I was a bit pissed off with him being late for 30mins. I was there right on time at 4pm then have to stand there for 20mins (10mins I was in westmall) and there are some digusting uncles who will look at you will they walk pass you.. -_-Ok, no surprises here since my name is very guyish.

Anyway, I got my ipod!! WOOHOO.. WAHAHAHA

I went back to hostel and saw that he bought the ipod from a university bookshop in LA. Rich kid sia, went to USA to study. Again, no surprises here since he ask me to meet at bukit batok (bukit timah area).

2) Shopping at bukit batok

Since the stupid buyer was late, I went to westmall to 'kan kan'. Bought one egg tart and prawn wrap from a shop named "bao dian". The taste is not bad. Then went to the cakeshop and bought 1 coffee and 1 chocolate roll.. NICE~~.

After meeting the seller, I went back to some more shopping at "SHOP N SAVE". I think they have the wrong name lor, should be "SHOP N SPEND" sia, the things are much more expensive than NTUC, but since I'm there, don't care liao. I was stuck in the shampoo and shower foam section for a long time.. cos I cannot decide on which brand to buy.. finally decided upon palmolive, green tea flavour. Got free 250ml somemore wor! Also bought olay facial foam (also got a free sample attached.. hee) and some other stuff.

3) Back in hall..

Was exploring my ipod, and discovered that it already got a lot of songs inside.. 2095 of them.. that would be around 8-10GBs.. plus my 10GBs worth of songs.. it would be just right!

I know I should be studying when I get back to hall.. but again was very sian.. Haiz.. (when was I ever not sian? haha) and was surfing friendster. checking out my "fake account". Ok la, cannot say fake account la.. the pictures are all really me, just that with that amount of makeup on, I would say that the person don't look like me at all.

Then decided to check out a new friend of mine.. I thought he would not have friendster, but who knows! not only does he have a friendster account, most of his friends are mostly pretty girls. I knew it -_- he is just one of them. To think that when I told my friend that he look like a "player", my friend says that he don't know a lot of girls. *BULLSHIT*

Suddenly I feel that I don't really know guys at all. Well, maybe I never know them before. I thought I think like a guy, but nope, I was wrong. They are a million ziliion times more disgusting than I thought (hmm.. does that mean that I'm disgusting? well maybe..)

photoshop

today i shall test my photoshop skills:

tada!





I'm so proud of myself.

Then again.. should I even feel happy? I look horrible in the before picture!!! ARGH.

too late to panic?

found out that my freshie competitor for the president post has been approaching people to vote for him, while I satyed put and didn't do anything. I'm not so worried about the votes from the seniors, but rather those from the juniors. I dun really know many of them and I'm afraid that those who have seen me in HSS FOC won't come for the voting (I'm assuming that they will vote for me in the first place, f they don't.. haiz.. I really dun noe)

would I get the president post???

Truth

Was surfing my blog and decided to be kaypo. I started search for blogs of my friends and oh! discovered the blog that confirmed my doubt whether they are together or not. And the answer is yes, they are together. The feeling is weird, I was suspecting it all along and now to confirm that they are together, I feel funny. Hahaha.. I was laughing like mad when I stumbled upon her blog. Too bad I couldn't find his, that will be great man.

Of course, I feel a bit cheated. He is already together with her that long ago. I knew that he wasn't serious but the feeling of being cheated is still there. Especially the part where he told me that he don't even have a GF before. I didn't believe him when he said that. I think he is just humoring me for I told him that I haven't been in any relationship before. I guess he don't believe me also..

Anyway, that was so long ago. I shouldn't even be thinking about it.

Her blog made me miss F. Haven't heard from him for a long time. But he did SMS me during national day when my handphone has no battery. -_- of all times. I only managed to read his sms at 3am in the morning and replied him the next day. He is still busy working and kept saying that he is very sian. He is leaving on 31st Oct for training. I did not ask him for how long but I guess that it will be another long period. I wonder if he will remember my birthday.. our birthdays are so close.. He don't message me in MSN anymore and I will appear offline whenever he is online. I don't like the feeling that both of us are online but he don't message me. At least by appearing offline, I can lie to myself that he can't see me that's why he don't message me. Then again, I don't think things can ever make it between me and him. We are not that close anymore and when I thought he will take action long ago, he didn't.. I feel disappointed. He is much better than most guys I know, although I don't know many guys..

I discover that I miss Hall 8

Despite moving to a newer and bigger hall.. I find myself missing the quiet life in Hall 8 and not to mention the MUCH CLEANER washing machines.

Haiz.

In Hall 12, the washing machines are shared by too many people and most of them are guys. As such, the washing machines become very smelly. What is it with guys that made their clothes (even after cleaning it in a washing machine) so smelly? I just don't understand. I don't feel like washing clothes in hall anymore. In Hall 8, the washing machines are cleaner and there is a larger space for me to hang my clothes.

I am a quiet person, I like to live in a quiet environment and Hall 12 is just the opposite. I guess that the block I am living in is too "active", there are people playing captain ball in the middle of the night at the grass patch just below my block. In Hall 8, I can easily change my clothes without closing the windows, there is only jungle out there and there is no one in the TV lounge all the time and washing machines are not always occupied.

I miss Hall 8...

Now, I don't even feel like going back to hall. Haiz.. I discover that it doesn't mean that you have to go for the more popular stuff, sometimes the less popular ones are more suitable for you.